"This new information was given to Spirit Messenger, Ellie Drew, over the course of the last year ('06) in visions, readings, people from the other side, and direct contact with a powerful spiritual being who asked her to share it. This is an opportunity to understand why forgiveness is absolutely necessary to our soul growth and freedom . . ."

Hi - I'm Ellie. I'll be adding to this site as I write it - and include a picture of the alter I was shown for the forgiveness ceremony. I ask your pardon for any typos or editorial mistakes since I haven't had anyone do the editing . . . but I will. I simply wanted to get this out since so many of you are asking for me to get something in writing.

First some history - 

A few years ago I was doing a reading for Murray, one of my local Qigong students and a man who had a rare form of skin cancer. His skin smelled and was always peeling; he was open to every kind of therapy but nothing seemed to make any difference.  We decided to have him come into my office for a private session (otherwise known as a psychic reading) to see if I could "pick up" anything that might be useful to him. What we got far surpassed anything either of us could have imagined.

As I tuned into him, I immediately saw a vision of Murray sitting in front of me with a cord attached to something above him. It was too far away for me to see clearly, so with my intention I grabbed it to bring it closer. It was a past life, moving picture with a man (Murray) and a T-Detonation device. He was plunging it down, and I heard an explosion. Unknown to him at the time, that explosion killed 30 men, women and children. 

In the next moment I saw 30 egg shapes off to my right. Two of the egg shapes were darkened out, but the third one was bright and had a cord connected to Murray in this lifetime. The other 27 eggs were also bright.

In a moment I knew what the egg shapes were – Murray's spirit-connection to the people he had inadvertently killed. When he found out what had happened he was spiritually and emotionally damaged with intense grief. In that moment he took on karma for those deaths with this fixed, manifesting statement, "I need to pay for those deaths. I need to pay. I'll never be whole until I pay for them all." He, nor I, understood the significance at the time, that those manifesting statements would affect his next three lifetimes.

Then in a flash I was in the first darkened egg shape seeing a past life where Murray was a small child sometime before child labor laws were enacted somewhere in Europe. I saw a large wooden barn-like structure where women and young children were working in a factory-like setting. Children too small to work stayed close to their mothers and were forced to take care of themselves. One night a fire broke out, but the doors had been locked so no one could run away. Murray died as a young child of burns all over his body quite similar in look to his peeling skin in this lifetime.

Flash! I was then in the second darkened egg shape – into another past life. I don't remember the details of this one, but it was similar to the first in that I saw he died of some kind of damage to his skin. He was very young in that lifetime also.

Flash! I see the whole picture of Murray sitting in front of me, with the explosion lifetime above him connected to a cord, and the 30 eggs off to my right, and this time he is connected to one of the bright egg shapes - in other words, living out his third lifetime paying his perceived debt in this lifetime with this rare form of skin cancer.

I was stunned, and I was at a loss of what to do in this situation. I had been narrating to him what I was seeing so he knew what I was seeing. We were both stunned. Here was a man who was kind! I knew enough from doing readings that people don't just change from one lifetime to another, that our core integrity is who we are. I knew he would never have knowingly harmed anyone in any lifetime! It simply wasn't part of his energy signature. But to find out we take on our own karma! That no one gives it to us. Stunning. It took some time to come out of it. Then I didn't know what to do . . . 

So I decided to go see the "big guys." I tuned into another awareness, sorry – but I have no other way to describe this unless I say that it's like changing a radio station to a different frequency. I didn't perceive anyone there, but had been familiar with changing frequencies to talk to people who knew more than I did. I said into the void, "I have before me a man with a terrible skin cancer connected to these past lives. I have no idea what to do for him except to ask for grace, grace so he can heal."

I hear, "So bestow it." I'm totally confused with this so I say, "Sorry, but come again?" Again I hear, "So BESTOW it." This time I say, "Okay, I heard the w-o-r-d-s you said, but I have no idea what you mean. Bestow it? Bestow Grace? How in the world? You've got to give me more than that!"

In a deep, male voice I'm told, "When one comes before you with a sincere heart, they can ask forgiveness from those to whom they did harm. In this way they may receive grace." 

As I'm hearing this I'm repeating it to Murray. Something must have resonated as truth for him because immediately Murray bursts into tears and begins begging for forgiveness for what he had done in that past lifetime. I'm again stunned with what I see unfolding. Murray becomes the brightest light, like a vertical rod, above those thirty egg shapes. Cords are attached from him to 28 of the bright eggs. As he cries and begs for forgiveness, pouring out his heart, the furthest egg seemingly drops the cord, quickly burns like a lit fuse until it reaches Murray, then disappears along with the egg! Then the next one, and next, until all but three are gone. Two that were left are the two lifetimes Murray had already "paid" for, and the third was his connection to this lifetime that he was paying for.

The implications of this vision were mind blowing. We take on our own karma? If we have a sincere heart, we can ask for forgiveness and receive grace? When we ask for forgiveness we sever our end of a connection to those we've done harm to? And not only that, we release the other person from their tie to us if they wish to? I didn't even believe in karma - except to say that if someone ate too much ice cream they were going to get fat, basic cause and effect, action and consequence, like Oh Duh! This was . . . I had no words. We ended the session speechless wondering what would happen next.

Within a year, Murray peacefully died from complications with his cancer. I was sad, and happy. Sad that he didn't receive the physical healing we both hoped for; but happy that he had received something more profound – deep spiritual healing and the chance to live other lifetimes free from a momentary passion of manifesting something that wasn't his fault in the first place. Others had known that people might get killed with that explosion, but you know what? They didn't lose any sleep over it. For them it was "just business." I had wondered why some monsters don't look like monsters – they don't think about it, and they don't take on any guilt and make any emotional, manifesting statements of guilt that would affect their next lifetimes. There were so many lessons in this reading . . . and in a few years I would learn why I was given the gift of doing a reading for Murray.

Nearly 3 years later . . . in a reading for a beautiful woman from Taiwan, I was told about a "Forgiveness Ceremony," and shown a layout of an alter to use in the ceremony. I was told what each of the elements on the alter meant. Over time, in other readings and through other coincidences, I was told that there were three forgiveness'. I'll write of all this when time permits. Months later I guided a workshop group through this ceremony. The following day, before I left the Mt. Shasta area, I did a reading for my host who had lost three brothers to death. One of the brothers had committed suicide. He showed up in the reading saying, "Thank you for the forgiveness ceremony." This man said that he had participated right along with his family, and that it had helped him a great deal. He said he had no guilt for the suicide – he had wanted out of his life, but he didn't know the emotional damage it would do for the rest of his family, and for that he had a hard time forgiving himself. He asked if he could bring others from "the other side" to these ceremonies when I did them. In that moment I saw another being show up, very big, bright, and intensely powerful.

This Being said the following, "I brought this brother to the ceremony so he could ask forgiveness from his family for what he had done. We would like you to invite people from this "other side" to join in your forgiveness ceremonies so they can heal and move on." 

In that moment I had a fuller awareness and began to cry for all the people who had crossed over but without peace, especially the veterans of war that had shown up in previous readings. I had thought forgiveness was only for those of us on this side of death. For the first time since my "Homer" experience in 2003, did I begin to understand how big the work was that I was being asked to do – to help people in this life forgive where they needed to, and those who had already passed. Oh, the connections we have with people, both in the past and into the future that we can be free from! Finally, I begin having an understanding about what it would mean to be relieved from the karma of living, and to be free to live, really live! I understood why Jesus said, "Forgive them for they know not what they do." He KNEW to forgive so he didn't take on anyone's guilt or his own through anger and unforgiveness. He didn't want any ties for any future lifetimes. He knew what this meant, of that I have no doubt.

In the course of the next couple of days I was shown in visions and dialog with this Being how to guide people through what he called a "Sacred Forgiveness Ceremony." And then I forgot it. You see, when I'm in dialog with Beings from in the Inner Realms it is like a dream. If I don't write it down I forget it, just like you forget a dream soon after waking from one. 

Nearly two months later when in Boulder, Colorado teaching a Soul Journeys workshop, I was to do the ceremony again. Three times the brother and Being showed up reminding me not to forget what they had said, and each time I did forget because I didn't write it down. The day came for the workshop participants to go up to the small Chapel for the ceremony. I remember there being an unusual amount of "energy" as I guided the powerful ceremony, but I didn't know why. Then it was finished, or so I had thought! Standing in front of the group thinking I was finished two beings showed up, on on each side of me – the brother from Mt. Shasta walked to stand on my right, the Being stepped up on my left, and then I remembered what they had asked me to do. 

Without any seeming hesitation on my part I told the group that we were now going to hold sacred space for others from the "other side" to go through the ceremony, and we would do it with them and/or for them on their behalf. I guided the group to invite in their ancestors, emotionally damaged veterans of war, and those who needed healing from the "other side" to come into this healing place for the Sacred Forgiveness Ceremony. The ceiling seemed to disappear as the golden light of the angelic realms poured in with some of us hearing celestial singing from the rare sight of angels. The small chapel kept expanding until I felt as if I were standing in the huge St. Paul Cathedral in London. More and more people from the other side kept pouring in and we just waited. Finally, with tears in my voice I humbly guided the group through another round of the three forgiveness' for all those souls who showed up that day. We stayed in that sacred space without words to disturb the peace for nearly 3 hours. I sang, chanted or played ancient sacred music, holding a healing place until it felt complete. 

Now, when I do the Sacred Forgiveness Ceremony, there are two unseen beings doing this work along with me. Sometime there are people who say they "see" others around me when I do it.

It's late and I want to get this posted. When I have time, I'll fill in the pieces, mostly the information about the alter, and  how to prepare for  the ceremony.

Oh, I'm "feeling" you want to know what the three forgiveness' are. I'm told this can ONLY be asked with a sincere heart or not at all.

The First Forgiveness is the Forgiveness of Self – for all things real and perceived, in this lifetime and in all lifetimes. We are harder on ourselves than anyone could possibly be on us!

The Second Forgiveness is Asking for Forgiveness – for all things real and perceived, in this lifetime and in all lifetimes. This time asking for  forgiveness for all the times you harmed others and were forced to war on others because of the political situation of the day.

The Third Forgiveness is Giving Forgiveness – for all things real and perceived, in this lifetime and in all lifetimes. Now it's time to give  forgiveness to all those who did you, and more importantly your family, group, or village harm. I have found that we don't seem to be spiritually or emotionally damaged if someone harms us. But if we were unable to protect our loved ones, that's tough. We forgive now, because with compassion we understand that others have been put in the same warrior positions we have! Maybe not in this lifetime, but in other lifetimes. Maybe in this lifetime, too.